I am me !

If there was ever an ironical statement, this is it: We are all unique, just like everyone else.

Yes, as obvious as the title sounds sometimes in life we try so hard not to be ourselves that it’s silly. I have noticed this particular thing especially in the past one month with the blog and interview preparations being the main harbingers of this realization.

Now if I talk about the interview part first. I am a guy who is not the hardest worker in the world, period! I can’t cram stuff simply because it’ll get me better grades, I will rather read a book that really interests me rather than one that’ll add more “value”, I’d rather hang out at my beloved hostel than read another chapter of Digital communication. I would choose having a beer binge followed by a rocking JAM session (aka Thursday) than a session spent on studying my B.Tech. Project. I’d rather work on something that works my grey cells crazy and doesn’t fetch me anything rather than working on mind- numbing crap which gets me closer to some material goal.

I know that all this will sound amazingly irresponsible to many of you reading this but that’s who I am! Irresponsible, yeah, if you think so, but I really don’t give a shit if you ask me. I am tired of trying to become a “ghissu” (aka bookworm) , sorry that just ain’t me!

I have been trying so hard for the past few days to fight the urge and not to have fun and study things that I have studied before and cram them up just that little bit better but I have now realized that there is no point fretting over what is not my nature. I can study things only once, period!

I have wondered throughout my four years in college about what it is that makes people study so damn hard and what drives them into such cramming sessions. Now I realize that they are just like that. Half of them don’t know what they are doing and 99% don’t know why they are doing whatever it is that they are doing!

This particular thing is not just with regards to studying. I had posted while ago about a girl I have had a soft spot for since the last 10 years. Now at least 10 people (including her!) Since then have told me that why is it that I cling to the past and why don’t I embrace new relationships. I thought a lot about what everyone told me and was confused as to why I had these unending thoughts about the same person for a whole decade while others seem to fall in love faster than they can learn the other person’s name!

The answer was simple, I am me.